Many Things To Do, Such Little Time

OMG I actually fell asleep at work. Although it was the first time, I sure do hope to make it my last. But I had so much to do in a short amount of time before I had to actually be at work. First off let me begin by saying I woke up very early. 7:00am to be exact. Reason being is because I had to take a shower before I head out to the doctors office in which I received my test results for AIDS/HIV and was please to find out it was NEGATIVE!

I have no cervical cancer and my liver and kidneys are just fine. As well as my cholesterol and blood pressure. Hearing good news started my day on the right foot and on a good note. Yeah, all until my doctor wants to be all sarcastic and tell stories by trying to relate real life situations to television shows and politics. Then everything went downhill from there because I was already late for work as is. It was then 1:50pm and I still haven't done everything on my to-do list. I still had to shop for a dress to wear to my mothers graduation ceremony, buy some accessories, pay my cell bill, get my hair and nails done and then buy gas.

After most was done I was so exhausted. Especially ever since I had finished eating my big plate of Spanish Lasagna which was so good with yuca. What made it special is the lasagna had sweet corn and sweet plantain with the most finger licking good cheese I have ever tasted. The only tasks I was not successful in completing was getting my nails and hair done so that will be done tomorrow guaranteed.

As soon as I got to work I begin to dose off to sleep and even the children have noticed it. Thats how tired I was. So I asked my supervisor if I may sleep for the 15 minutes that the children eat snack. She was so generous and kind enough to let me sleep for more than an hour. After I woke up, I rinsed out my mouth and went right back to work helping the children. Although my supervisor said for me to just relax, I knew deep down inside I could not leave her alone with all them kids. So as the sweet and helpful caring person that I am, I kept the boys entertained with board games and jokes while the girls play outside. I am still tired nevertheless but also hungry. With that said, I am leaving out the door this instance to get me something to eat then come back home and go straight to sleep.

Final Speech

I was suppose to blog about how my final speech went in class since yesterday but I was so tired and worn out from doing all these assignments that I have for week 8 finals. I actually feel relieved because now I am up-to-date with all of my classes. I have no more speeches, no more labs, no more homework and I don't even have to go back to the school until after my two week vacation is up in July. YES!

But as I was saying, yesterday was a last minute thing for me. I did minor research on all the school education cuts concerning metro cards, teachers, financial aid and the T.A.P. cuts. I admitted that I was not ready because I didn't even have time to go over what I researched nor did I have time to practice my 5 minute speech. Then I was behind on some speeches. I did my impromptu speech on passwords which wasn't that hard. It was more like common sense. Then I also did my nlast speech on what garde I think I deserve for my Speech class. Of course I said I deserve an "A". But without a doubt, I have many resources to support my reasoning.

Overall, I am happy that my 3rd semester is all about done and over with. I was sick very often and had one heck of a time trying to catch up on some major work assignments. Now I can relax and enjoy the sun. At least until July 6th, 2010.

I Am an American

After watching a 60 second video/commercial of different ethnicity groups saying 4 small words with big meanings, I have written a reflective essay on what "I am an American" means to me.

The video on “I Am an American” reflects on me, because I too am an American. I was born in the United States and that makes me a United States Citizen. The U.S. accepts people all of nations from all around the world no matter the skin color, age, gender, religion etc. People from different ethnicity and backgrounds can also consider themselves Americans, because they have taken the oath, and have pledge an allegiance to the flag of the United States of America and have became Naturalized Citizens. The only difference between these people and me is that I can actually run for the office of the President of the United States of America, whereas they cannot. To become a U.S. President you have to be a born American.

What America means to me is freedom and a land of opportunity. America has freedom of speech allowing us to speak our mind freely without being penalized for it. In some countries, people are punished for speaking up, but as an American, I have a voice to be heard. America gives me the opportunity to grow and do what ever it is that I want. I can become who ever I want and take on a profession that I like. I am also allowed to choose my party affiliation by voting and go through a peaceful election process. This means we have a democratic form of government where the government is elected by the people. In America, the people’s vote counts.

I enjoy the advantages I have living in America. Nevertheless, many people take for granted what we have in America and do not realize there are people who are less fortunate than we are. Compared to the way of life in other countries, America is like a paradise filled with mansions and treasure.


For example, living in Africa is very difficult due to the lack of money and support from the government. They have a corrupt government and parents must pay for their children to go to school, but in the U.S., school is free. It is more of a privilege than it is an opportunity to get an education in Africa. Families are living in over crowded homes where there are twenty people or more living in a single room shack. The water system is very unhealthy, because they must fetch their water from underground or wells and the water is not clean at all. Drinking the water may lead to deaths caused from infections, diseases and diarrhea. There are much more hardships that people in Africa face everyday that Americans do not. This is why I am glad I am an American.

In essence, I am an American. I am living the American dream and following my destiny. By living in America and knowing what other countries do not have, I learned you should never take anything for granted. I have come to realize that there is no place like home, and I definitely love my home sweet home. Although I am given the choice to live, wherever I want in the world, I rather live in America and have it no other way. This is my life, and I can live it anyway I choose how.

The Reason for Blogging

I hate blogging! It is so boring, but because I have to do it as it is required for class by my Professor, here I am once again with nothing to talk about. It can be really easy or really hard to blog. I think the easiest time for me to blog is when I am angry and want to express my feelings or when I am excited about doing something new or fun. My friends say it’s cool that I blog and meanwhile others think it is boring as well. However, I do find it to be very helpful for me. It helps me to open up more often but I also have to keep in mind that this is the internet and to be careful of what I post.

I may have stalkers that I am unaware of and anyone can be reading my blogs being that they are visible to he public’s eye. I would have made my profile and other information as well as my blogs private but they must be read by classmates and easy for my professor to access my blogs when necessary. I just wish this was all over this way I don’t have to worry about missing too many blogs. I get writer’s block so many times and I feel as if my life is so boring that I cant think of anything to blog about. It will be even more boring if I just wrote about how my day was every single day. Although that is one way I can keep up with my blogs.

I don’t think the professor really cares anymore. All she wants to see is that we are writing everyday as part of our homework assignments. I am currently taking a speech class and writing blogs is working for me because it allows me to be more creative when I speak. I also feel more comfortable the more I write because it is like I am getting some personal issues off of my chest. After writing a few blogs, I feel as if I just got a burden lifted off from my shoulders. In the end, I am sure this will all pay off one way or another. Maybe not now, but in the near future.

Almost There

I feel so much better. I am so relieved that I have most things on my wish list complete. One major task I had to complete was fixing my car. Transportation was killing me and now especially in this hot weather, I cannot rely on public transportation. I had to go to work today and of course the bus was late and for the first time I had no choice but to take the dollar van. I have my reasons for that as well but we'll talk about that another time.

Now that I have my car fully tuned up and running properly, I can get to work and school on time and rely on no one but myself. I know it will be all worth it because I paid over $800 to get everything done. At least concerning my car. Now I must buy Microsoft Office Home and Student 2007 and download it to my laptop to get my work done for school. I can't even rely on my professor to teach me how to do lab assignments anymore. I must find out how to do it on my own and this is really pushing me far behind in school. But in order get myself back on track and up to date as far as my grade book goes, its something that I must do.

After that is done, I will be stress free. My only concern will be living happy and taking each day one day at a time making sure not to have a crisis. Hopefully I will get all A's in every class this semester then I can enjoy my little two week break and start my summer by taking more summer classes yet earning money and doing what I enjoy doing. Which is SHOPPING! =)

A New Audience

My hands are sweating as I type. I am nervous about tonight's speech for the first time. The reason is because I will be giving a impromptu speech in front of new faces that I have never done a speech in front of before. But because the professor will not be attending class this weekend, she offered the class the opportunity to make up their speeches on a day she will hold class and which is tonight at 6pm.

There are many reasons to be nervous tonight. For one, I will have a different audience than usual. I don't know if this class will be bigger or smaller than my original speech class. But I doubt it is smaller because my usual speech class has only six students plus the professor. Two, just the thought of an impromptu speech is nerve wrecking. Thank goodness, the speech only has to last 1-3 minutes.

I have never done a impromptu speech before and knowing that it is random topics, I can almost guarantee I will stutter or mess up somewhere. I hope the professor doesn't bring her camcorder to video our speeches because that will only make more nervous and embarrassing. I pray this day is over real quick. [sigh]

I guess my only option is to take a deep breath and try not to stare at anyone in the audience. Hopefully my voice doesn't crack.

A Buzz on Caffeine

As required for my previous English class prior to taking Speech class, I had to complete weekly reaction journals. I read an article based on facts of caffeine. At first I wasn't interested in reading the article because I don't drink caffeine so what do I care? But as I begin to read on, it got more interesting and the facts really did help me with my psychology class.

After reading "A Buzz on Caffeine", I have learned new things that I was totally unaware of. Facts such as caffeine preventing Parkinson's disease and type 2 diabetes. I learned that 70% of soft drinks have caffeine in them. Then I begin thinking out loud, no wonder soda makes people hyper. Caffeine gives people energy and helps them to stay alert. However, when the caffeine leaves your body, the brain chemicals begin to flow again and as a result, you crash.

I think caffeine may only be useful for those who drink it on a regular basis, because it affects them the most. On the other hand, beginner caffeine users will not feel anything has changed right away. Physical dependence can occur in three days.

How to Pick-up Cute Guys Using Scam Tactics

I just finished my instructional speech in class today. Informing my classmates how to pick up a cute guy using scam tactics. The scam that I used was modeling because of course if you are interested in a guy when you see him, the only thing you know of him so far is that he looks handsome and you see yourself dating him. So, his looks is what you notice first...Correct?

I was influenced to do this speech based on this topic because my friend was telling me how much she wanted to talk to this guy she seen on the train one day and thought he was really cute but she was afraid to talk to him. Not only that, but because she didn't know how to approach him. Of course, me being such a great friend that I am, I helped her out a bit and gave her some advice.

I made up a chart used for information. Something close to an information sheet when you are at the doctors office and they ask you basic questions such as your name, phone number, address, height, weight, etc. Then I also included a brief survey for this guy that you may be interested in. The questions are based on simple things to know more about his personality.

Included with the fake made up questionnaire chart, I made up a fake business card to provide the "cutie" with in case he wants to contact you. Now remember, you want to be as professional as possible when you approach your guy because your impressions means a lot. But instead of coming on too strong or seeming to desperate to date this guy, you can play it off.

Now when everything is all said and done, you think to yourself how would you ever face to tell him the truth. That the whole modeling gig was just a scam to date him. Well.... hence his personality type. If he has a great sense of humor, which you sure hope he does, you will tell him that it is not real and lucky for you he will laugh about it. In the end, you both have something to laugh about and maybe in the future, you can share this story on how you met each other to your children or grandchildren.

During this speech I was giving in class, I was not nervous at all. I guess it was because I took my speech as a comical. Which I thought went pretty well because I made the class laugh and I even included hand outs for the class to get a "Hands-On" experience to relate to what I was talking about. I hope I receive a good grade for this speech today. (Finger's Crossed) =)

Dramatic Break-Ups

There's a difference between just breaking up from a relationship and being way over the top after a break-up. When I say dramatic, I mean the type to have suicidal thoughts just because their significant other has dumped them. Its hard to believe that someone would actually think to do such a crazy thing to themselves. Well I know of someone who does this quite often and sad to say I am in constant contact with this person.

I mean I try talking to calm things down and maybe get her to think positive that it is not the end of the world and there is better things in life to live for. But after trying so hard for so long you begin to think to yourself how much more can you do to help someone before they finally realize, okay its time for a change. I cant even begin to imagine myself wanting to kill myself over my ex-boyfriend. As young as I am, I know that I have much more to see and live for everyday. But all I can do is shake my head and think to myself that my friend is absolutely out of her damn mind.

I don't know what to do anymore. So the only alternative option my family friends and myself thought to do is commit her into the hospital to be evaluated. Comes to find out she has a bi-polar disorder and now needs psychiatric help. I hope the therapy sessions help and gets her to stop thinking about killing herself. There is only so much I can do, so I leave it all in Gods hands and pray for a better future for both my friend and her better half.

Staring at My Own Reflection

I was just viewing some pictures from my high school's fashion show for the 2010 season and judging by the pictures, it looks like it went pretty well and was even better than last year. I didnt go this year because I had to work but I do feel a certain way from seeing how all of my former school mates grew up and sometimes I feel as if I am not pretty enough to fit into that category anymore. Not that I think I am ugly but just not as attractive as some of my other friends. The looks, I am not concerned with. The difference is height and size.

When I look at myself in the mirror, I say "Hey I look gorgeous today" but once I am with a few of my friends, its as if I am always the shorter and skinnier female out of the entire group. I tried almost everything I could to change that but nothing seems to work. Now dont let my size fool you because I am girl who likes to eat. But where does it go... I have no idea. "/ I just wish something would change.

It is not as if I hear compliments given to me everyday. Sometimes I feel that just a little confidence booster is needed to make me feel good about myself. Normally, I wouldnt be so public about my personal feelings about myself but It feels good to get it out and tell someone. I dont care who is reading this blog right now because I know someone will dare to read it. Comment, maybe not. But at least I know that my thoughts were heard aloud. Or read I should say.

I guess the only thing there is for me to do is to continue being myself and let my natural and unique beauty speak for itself. Confidence is everything! =)

First Class Speech

Today, I had my first speech in class. Although I was late and put on the spot I must say that I am very proud of myself for doing as good as I did today. I know that sometimes I may come off as a shy person, but I didn't have not one butterfly in my stomach. I was confident, I spoke what was on my mind and everything just came very natural. The duration of the speech had to be between 1-4 minutes but I think that I went over the limit by one extra minute. I guess the professor didn't mind because she didn't stop me either.

What I noticed while I was talking in front of the classroom, was that I had every one's attention. I am not sure if I bored everyone with my speech but I like to believe that I didn't. Although the applause at the end of every speech is mandatory and necessary for motivation, I feel as though the class were clapping because it was genuine.

I must say, coming from that once little shy girl that I use to be back in elementary is no longer alive. Instead I have blossomed into a beautiful young woman with a voice to be heard.

Talk is Cheap

I hate people who are all mouth. All they do is talk out their ass and show nothing to prove themselves. If someone is going to brag and boast about something they want to do, they can at least put some effort into it and try doing so. For me, that is a major turn off, whether you are male or female it doesn’t matter because at the end of the day, you never kept your word about anything you said. At least when I say I am going to do something I actually do it. I don’t like to blog and talk out of anger but I cant help but speak the truth. Its upsetting me that friends keep promises and don’t stick to them. But what’s heart breaking is when your own family doesn’t own up to what they say. I learned from I was in my single digit years not to have high hopes about anything anyone says to me because actions speak louder than words. As my favorite saying goes,… “I’ll believe it when I see it”. Other than that, I wouldn’t hold my breath. I guess when people tell me that I am so generous, they are using that to their advantage to take my kindness for weakness. But all who knows me well, knows that I am a very trust worthy and dependable person. It’s sad to know that it is so hard to find more people like myself. I understand everyone is different but some people have the same murals, principles and perspectives on certain situations. I just wish that who talks the talk can walk the walk.

Playful & Ungrateful =)

My nephew’s kitten is so ungrateful. I went to my mothers house and noticed how the kitten was following me all over the house, up and down the halls. He just stuck to me like glue. Especially since I begin to eat a twinkie as I sat down to watch some television. I know that my cat is greedy but I knew something was wrong from the way he watched me like an hawk. So I figured that he was hungry. Usually, when the cat sees me, he is always ready to fight with me. But I can tell when he wants something when he tries to be nice to me. I finally get to go to the store to buy him some food and when I came back, he jumped up from the couch ready to attack me. I knew he was starving from his reaction. So I begin to pour his food into the bowl and he attacked it like a quarterback. I was relieved now that I got him out of way. Then all of a sudden, my mom and I noticed that the kitten began to play fight with my boyfriend as he usually does. I said aloud to them all “That cat is so ungrateful, as soon as he gets some food in his stomach he wants to start trouble.” And it’s true. That kitten is no angel so don’t let his innocent face fool you. I don’t know what it is my nephew done to that cat but he is not your ordinary house cat.

My Hair Obsession

My last Perm was on February 4th, 2010. Today, it is May 2nd, 2010. My hair doesn’t feel as though it needs a perm so I am conditioning it. But it is beginning to break off. And it grew so long within the year of 2009, I don’t want to cause any harm to my hair. Everyone that knows me, knows that I am obsessed with it. For me to always want my hair done or demand that I have it done at all times, must mean something.
I cant stand it when my hair isn’t done. I even hate it when I have to wear my hair in a pony tail because it is dirty. Right now my hair is very dirty and I know so because I have dandruff. That is why I chose to condition my hair this afternoon. The only problem that I am having now is figuring out what hairstyle I want done next. I have an idea. A couple actually. But that means I have to go out buy some hair (weave or extensions) then get in contact with one of my 5 hair stylist to get it done before the school week begins. Which doesn’t give me enough time being that today is already Sunday.

The children at my job even notices how much I care about my hair. They remark is always “Ms. Lorin, you always have a new hairstyle every week”. But I cant help it. I do everything to my hair as well. From sew-in weaves, Extensions, Wigs and Wraps. Including coloring. But one thing I refuse to do to my hair is Dye. It scares me a little. Maybe its because I know that hair salons uses peroxide and bleach to dye the hair. Especially if you want it colored blonde.

Right now, I am especially scared to perm my hair being that I haven’t done so in almost 3 months. I find it to be very healthy to not perm my hair. But I also hate getting it blow dried as well. The heat from the blow dryer alone damages my hair because the heat is so hot. Sometimes, I stress it so much that I just braid my hair and throw on a wig. But trust me, those who know I have long hair, wouldn’t even notice that I have on a wig. Most of the time people think it is a weave. That’s because I never wear a hairstyle for more than 3 weeks. I never wear a wig more than 1 week and I don’t really favor braids anymore either. I think that is for children now. I am getting older, and my maturity level has increased maybe about 10 times than what it was before. But I don’t think I can or will ever grow out of the habit of getting my hair done. Besides, a female is to have her hair done at all times. Even if she is just relaxing in her own home. She doesn’t have to be going out on a date to look scrumptious and have luxurious hair. At least I don’t. =)

The Down/Upside of Driving

I hate taking the bus to work. It’s always crowded, running late or no seats left on the bus. But since my car broke down, this is what I have to deal with. Since Last week Tuesday, my radiator on the car over heated and busted. Now I must pay for a new radiator, pay to have it put in and I have to buy a new thermostat. This sucks major a** because I now have to wake up earlier than usual just to get ready and wait for the bus. What really puts the icing on the cake is besides me having to work with kids, I must take the bus with rowdy, loud, and obnoxious older kids on the bus. Being that they get out of school around noon and myself having to be at work for 2pm just in time for more kids to get out of school. I refuse to fix my car right now anyway because as soon as it is up and running and everyone knows I am driving, I will begin to get phone calls left and right asking for a ride to go somewhere. Funny thing is, no one bothers contributing to gas and so for that reason alone, I am done being nice. I have to work to earn my money and I’m not letting anyone take it away from me for their own selfish reasons. Sometimes I feel glad that my car isn’t driving right now because it really shows you how much people cares. No one comes around when your not driving but when you are, everyone is your friend. SMH

Top 10 Reasons Why I Take Out My Weave

1. Need new hair style

2. Hair needs to wash

3. Tracks begin falling out

4. Itchy Scalp

5. New Growth

6. Bored of hair style

7. Hair Tangles

8. Face begins to break out

9. Somewhere special to go

10. Need to color/dye my hair

Collaborating Clothes & Feminine Products

I know you shouldn't post your ideas on the web unless you plan on copy writing or branding it someway but I just had to get this out there and off my mind. It's been bought to my attention recently that the food brand Krasdale is also marketing feminine products such as sanitary napkins. They are cheap of course selling for 12-14 in a pack for only $1.00. When my cousin told me this I mentioned to her that I wouldn't be surprise if the most trusted brand in feminine products "ALWAYS" begin to make clothing for females when that once a month friend comes along. As most females may know by now that it is good to wear something loose fitting and comfortable when you are on your period because it will not bring your period down. Whereas, tight fitting clothing makes your blood flow heavier. Some females wear sweats to avoid having to wear a belt around the waist, but instead of "ALWAYS" making sweats, I thought of them making more stylish clothing yet comfortable, suitable and convenient for every female as if it were especially made for that individual. I thought of something like flowing skirts, sun dresses or anything of that sort. I think it would be a good idea and an even better one just to say that I thought of it first. =)


Signed: Lorin E. McFarlane

6 Flags Season Passes

Today I received the check that I was waiting upon for the longest. Its not a big check but its just enough for me to splurge on things that I desired and of course to pay bills. But one thing that I definitely plan on doing is buying 2 season passes this week. Once it is nice and hot outside, preferably next weekend, I will be going to six flags. Season passes are $80.00 right now plus tax so you figure about $90.00 I will have to pay per ticket. But if you think about it, it is all worth it because the season pass pays for itself in the 3rd visit and a lot of perks come along with the season passes. Free stuff too like bring friends along, free food and you get to enter sweepstakes to win prizes. Next year, if I decide to buy another season pass I will even receive 20% off of the original price which is way cheaper. As of how often I will be going, it will probably be more than twice a month. All of my friends are buying season passes as well so this summer I know it will be crazy fun because I don't plan on spending it any other way.

NYC Auto Show

Today, was a great day. Although the trains were not running due to the weekend schedule but for the most part I cant complain. I went to the auto show with my friend and it was our first time. I'm glad that I decided to go especially this year because I am legal of age to receive certain prizes. I was able to test drive the 2011 KIA Sorento and it drives really smooth. The ride was fast and I learned a little more about the car and its features during the ride. Afterwards, I completed a survey and received a reward voucher for a free game of golf, free movie tickets or a free pedicure. Of course I chose the movie tickets. We also took pictures with the Lamborghini Murciélago and many other sport cars and other of our favorites. My dream car which was the Infiniti QX56 looks completely different but in a good way and the amazing Infiniti Essence was breath taking. We stayed at the show from 12pm to 5pm. I had a lot of fun and I plan on going again next year. Too bad I wasn't old enough to enter the cash prize give aways. But I can wait three more years. Yes, my boyfriend was jealous that I didn't bring him along but he'll get over it. He's been to so many car shows before and he viewed the website so I'm sure he didn't miss much. At least, I won some prizes for his car including some free air fresheners from spinning the wheel. He was grateful for that. I also received posters and a great first time experience at a huge event like the NY Auto Show.

My Role in My Education

I am currently a sophomore in college attaining my bachelors degree in Business Administration. Five years from now, I would like to be working as a top manager or CEO of a big company. I would also like to have my own business of a day care center and own real estate. Three obstacle that may prevent me from achieving my goals are financial problems, family disputes and a pregnancy.

Financial problems that I may face in the future can result from being in debt or not having enough income to jumpstart my career. I must be able to manage my money and have my assets out weigh my liabilities. Family disputes can prevent me from achieving my goals, because my family may think differently about my career and academic future and make me have second thoughts. This will prevent me from pursuing my dreams. Having children and starting a family at an early age will definitely interfere with my academic and career plan. I will have to cater all their needs and work just wont get done. It will be very difficult to juggle my career, school and family.

One Ghetto Club

I don't think I will be going to any sort of clubs anymore or anytime soon. Last club I've been too I never seen something so ghetto. For one, it was located in the Flee Market and the security sucked. In my opinion, they were too relaxed. I was expecting tight security but I didn't even get checked. There are no lockers for party goers to secure their belongings and the inside of the club was really small. Almost like the size of a class room but it did have male and Female bathrooms. The worst part about everything was people were in the club smoking. I have never been to a club where that is aloud at all. Everyone knows I hate smoke so thats what really got me going when I arrived. The most I stayed at this club was an hour tops. I couldn't take it anymore. The DJ was wack because all he did was talk on the Mic and the crowd wasn't big so that made the party even more lame. It's what ever though, because the next time you hear me going to any party, It will be a party of my own or a friends house/backyard party. I must say that I have been to teen parties better than this one at this so called "CLUB". SMH

Like Brand New

Last night I took a bubble bath with Epsom salt to ease the pain I was in from so much exercise. I must say that it definitely paid off. I woke up this morning pain free and my legs look pretty good I must say. I tried on a dress my friend bought me for this party tonight and I looked damn good in all white. So I think I’m going to wear heels tonight at that party. I know I will get many compliments because I deserve it. I went two days straight running, squatting, jogging, playing handball and bike riding. I know I am in good shape already but it doesn’t hurt to want to stay fit. Oh wait, YES IT DOES! LOL. But now its back to work because my spring break is over even though I don’t have to go back to school until next Friday on April 16th. I still have duties. I have already gotten my things ready but I still have to do my hair and get dress. I still have to have my breakfast as well. But I figured before I am on my way out the door headed to work, I can blog and do some homework. So as you can see, this isn’t really procrastination. I am still getting work done. Good thing for me that I know how to multi-task.

My 5th Tattoo

On Thursday April 1st I got my 5th tattoo. It wasn't planned for that day but I did end up getting it. I must admit, that this is the first tattoo that ever hurted. It was only the coloring that gave the most pain. however i hated when ever my tattoo artist stopped the coloring to answer his phone or to talk to another customer because when he goes back to finishing the tattoo, it seems to hurt worse than before. Although it is not finished yet, it is coming to be a beauty. I thought of the whole tattoo design myself and I even drew it up. Yes, it is true, I do have some drawing skills but only if I really put my all into it. And of course if it is something that I am going to mark my body with, I know it is going to be permanent i would want it to look as nice as possible. Each and every one of my tattoos are unique ideas because they are all my ideas. No else has it because I think of them on my own and they are not stored and saved away for others to have. In two weeks I have to go back to finish my coloring and shading of my tattoo. But for now, heres a few pics of what it came from to what it has been...

A Day for Exercise

From my thighs down to my feet I am in pain and my body is so sore. My family and friends had a blast today. We all got our bikes from the garage and basements and went bike riding all over south side of Queens. We went to the park to play basketball, Handball and we even played tag. I know we are all a bunch of adults but one is never to old to play old time favorites. I must admit we had lots of fun today. It is suppose to be nice for the remainder of spring break so we will continue to ride our bikes and have fun in the sun. I know in the morning I will be in even more pain than I am right now. I played and laughed so much until the point where I begin to get light headed and feel nauseous. My head was spinning and I just couldn't take it anymore. But it felt good to laugh the way I did. It brings back memories from when I was still in elementary school. Hopefully, there will be more tears of happiness and laughter to come in the near future. =D

Dying of Boredom

Its Saturday night and I am so bored out my mind. I usually have something to do, and I mean anything. But I don’t know why tonight of all nights no plans come up. I understand tomorrow morning is Easter but gees, if I don’t find something to do right now I am going to start a one man party in my house. I’m going to start doing back flips and jumping on the floors. I even thought about prank calling a few people. LOL. Yeah maybe I’ll do that. I can go for some good entertainment and laugh. It may sound childish but when you don’t have anything else better to do you end up doing crazy things. I read all of my new books that I received for my birthday and I don’t know of any parties. But honestly, I don’t want to spend money tonight just to have a good time. However I do want to get out of this house. I feel like I am trapped in a senior citizen home with no board games to play. OMG!!!

A Cry for Wi-Fi

This little boy downstairs from my house gets on my nerve with this Wi-Fi connection thing we have. He changes the password almost every single day. I cannot stand him. When I had my wifi connection I did not change the password up on him at all. But if I did, at least he would be notified. We had a deal since I did it for him once before but now he is truly messing up and getting me on the edge. It can be the most important time of day where I really need internet access to do homework or something concerning work and come to find out that I have no connection. I’ve been easy on him just because I am a nice person. But I feel like punching him in his face right now as I type. I am so infuriated with him. When I get mad I can type about 80 words per minute so this blog right now to me is a breeze. His excuse every time I ask him about the connection is that his router is messed up or he don’t know what’s wrong with it. But I know what he does and its not right. I swear if this happens one more time I am going to sabotage something of his very valuable. See I am not the one to mess with. I am not making a threat but a promise that if and when it does happen he will not be happy of the outcome. I will speak to his mother if I have to because I have dirt on him anyway. So he better recognize. For those who knows an Aries, knows that we get even and I am someone who likes to hold grudges for as long as I can. I forgive people but I am not stupid enough to trust them. I am very good with memory so no one can try to play me if they dare.

Missing Turtle

My nephews cat is so demonic. No one else sees it except for me. I had four cats before so I think I know what im talking about. The reason why this particular cat is the way he is probably because my little nephew likes to play fight with the cat. But I must admit, he doesn’t mean any harm. Besides a cat, we also have a baby turtle. My mom sets the fish tank on the table in the living room by the window. While my mom went out the cat went and did some snooping around the house. As usual, being nosy as he is, the cat jumps on the table and knocks the fish tank down. The water leaks everywhere on the floor and the turtle is gone and nowhere to be found. My mom almost cried because she couldn’t find her turtle. I thought it was dead because we didn’t know for how long the turtle could’ve been out of the tank already. So we search the house under the couch’s and tables and couldn’t find the turtle. Trying to multi-task, we started putting the groceries away. Then from the corner of my eye I peep the cat foundling with something under our magazine rack. My mind told me to go check out what he was fighting to get to and right before my eyes there was the turtle running away from the cat. So my mom rushed quick to clean the turtle and put him back in its home. She was so mad at the cat but we figured he didn’t mean to do it on purpose. He’s just nosy. Now that we found the turtle and he is still living, my mom is at ease.

Canceled Plans

Today I was suppose to attend BET 106 & Park with some friends. Although today is kind of an off day for everyone. I guess that’s why nothing seems to be working out. Some of my friends weren’t granted the permission to go, some hair isn’t done yet, and then the big downfall of it all is that we were not able to print the tickets. It seems like no one printer is working. Besides Manhattan being very cold later on tonight, I did look forward to going. I went last year on the day of my birthday and it was pretty cool for my 1st time going. Today Niki Minaj was going to be there and I know how the crowd will be. But I don’t care for the wannabe Harajuku Barbie too much. So I called it off with my friends and decided to stay inside for the remainder of the day. Besides, everyone else has plans and other things of importance to do anyway. I’m not sweating it though. My birthday is going smooth and no one is here to rain on my parade. I’m just glad to have my friends around to celebrate it with.

My Principles

If I gave something to you I expect for you to take care of it. Same thing goes if I were to buy it or even if I did something for you. The least I ask in return is a thank you. Why bother giving someone or something your all when in the end it never really meant anything? I don’t do things for other people if I knew they didn’t deserve it. I am a kind hearted person but cross me and that will be the end of our relationship. No one does something for nothing but when I do something and ask for nothing its because I have love and respect for that person. Therefore, when I give someone something I would want them to guard it, and treat it with love. Treasure it as if it were their last gift ever and will soon be worth millions one day. However, if you were to pay me to do something and then turn around and mess it all up that’s when I can care less because it was your money that paid for it so you can treat it how you want to. I don’t show favoritism. To me its all about the mutual respect we have for one another. You treat me and show me royalty and you will get the same from me in return. These are my principles.

Week 3 English Assignment

Today is Saturday at this very moment. Last night in English class, the professor gave the class an outside assignment to complete. I’m so anxious and excited that I don’t know how to organize my thoughts right now. It is a team assignment and our team has to meet at Chelsea Piers next Friday at 5pm. Our mission is to observe the surroundings or (people watch) as some people may call it and take notes. Then each member must write an Observational Report and Analysis Report based on our observing site. Depending on how long we stay at our site, the length of our reports should match. We must take pictures and present that as well in our reports. I’m excited to do this because I have never done an outside assignment as far as school goes and I believe it would be fun. This is only week 3 of session A and our reports aren’t due until week 6. The reason is because next week each team will meet at their site and week 5, which is April 2nd there is no school due to spring recess. So we have a break. Before you know it, class will be over and more than likely I will pass with yet another “A”. J

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A Good Day Back To Work

Today was my first day back to work after I got sick from having the stomach virus. I got a big welcome back from my supervisor and surprisingly, my children didn't give me a hard time either. That was a blessing because only god knows I would not had been able to manage. However I am still having these vicious headaches called migraines. good thing I go back to the doctor tomorrow for a follow up too. I have to remember to bring in my immunization card so that it can be updated and I can bring that into work as well. but I am just glad that my day at work went really well. I even got a little extra cash in my pocket thanks to my boss. I don't know if he felt sorry for what my pay check was looking like but he sure did give me way more than what I was bargained for. Its cool. But I wont be cashing my check until the weekend before my birthday which is March 30th, because I can use the little extra pocket money to splurge and treat myself to something nice for once.

Dreading New School Location

I am currently watching a movie called “The Edge of Darkness” starring Mel Gibson. Im almost at the end and it is a very good movie I must say but that is not what this blog is about. As I was watching this movie while laying in my bed, I was wondering about the changes I soon have to face once my school campus location will be moving to Manhattan. I am really dreading that move because that means I will have to travel further and wake up earlier to give myself enough time to get to class. I mean the whole purpose of me choosing Devry was because of its convenient location right there in Long Island City. That is the only location in Queens and now they are taking away from us. We already have a campus in Manhattan so I don’t know why they are making another location there. For now, I am going to try and take as many courses as I possibly can so that I don’t have so many classes when January 2011 comes. By then most of my classes will be online courses anyways. Thank goodness for that. I guess I am in luck after all. Now that I have this off of my chest and put to rest in the back of my mind, I am going to resume watching the movie.

Music Comparison: Diva V.S. Empire State

Have you ever listened closely to the words in a song? How about a song that you hated the most? It seems that you always know the words to that song, just because you disliked it so much. If you noticed, music has a major impact on society. Whether it is children, the youth or the elderly, we all feel some type of way when we listen to it. Let me show you what I mean.

For example, the song Diva by Beyonce is clearly not a good image you would want to give to young girls. I know so, because I am a teenager myself. I dislike this song because it portrays a diva to be a female who is snotty and expects everything to fall in her path. The lyrics are “where my ladies up in here that like to talk back, I wanna see ya, I’d like to meet cha, what you said, she ain’t no diva”. In my opinion, this is telling females they can be rude if they are the ones who are getting money. Another reason why I dislike this song is because it says “a diva is a female version of a hustler” and “divas getting money, if you ain’t getting money then you ain’t got nothing for me” in which I disagree. It sounds like a diva is supposed to be some type of female pimp. According to the Webster’s new pocket dictionary, the meaning of a hustler is someone who gets money dishonestly or is a prostitute. Now what exactly is Beyonce trying to tell females in her song?

On the other hand, a song that I absolutely love is Empire State of Mind by Jay-Z and Alicia Keys. The reason is that it tells you how much you would enjoy the life in New York City. When I first heard the words “these streets will make you feel brand new, these lights will inspire you” I felt that Alicia Keys was speaking the truth. I know every time I go to the city, I feel that dreams can come true as well. I think the message that the song is trying to give is that you can do anything if you try and anything is possible in New York City. All you have to do is believe in yourself. That is the main reason why I love this song. Also because it has a nice tune. I do not think anyone can resist listening to it.

Plans for Tuesday- March 16th 2010

This Tuesday coming up which is March 16, 2010 I have quite a few things on my plate. The first thing that I was informed of was there will be no after school that day because elementary and junior high school has a half day. That Day is also my little cousin’s 15th birthday and I know that he would want me spend it with him. But I have some important things that I must take care of. Tuesday I must do a follow up at the doctors office to see how I progressed after being sick and I also have to do the remains of blood work and get my second part of the MMR shot. Now my Wi-Fi connection back at home sucks so what I was thinking about doing is going to my school and try to get some work done. Then after I am done all important matters of the day, I can spend time with my family and friends for my cousin’s birthday. Sounds like a lot of work but it has to get done.

No Pain, No Gain

I would’ve never thought that in order to heal ones wounds, that person must make sacrifices. I’ve learned this the hard way being stubborn and strong headed just as I am. But this past week, it took me some time to give in and wizen up that if I want to relieve pain, first I must go through pain. I was recently sick. I had a fever with my highest temperature being taking at 102.6. Yea I know that’s pretty high but I refused to get medical treatment and go to the hospital. My fever lasted for two days before it broke. I had to take pills, pills, and more pills that only made me nauseous. Everything I ate, came right back up. Then on top of that I had extreme sharp pain on my entire left side of my body. You wouldn’t believe how much trouble I caused my family by not listening to their words of wisdom on how to get better soon. However, it worked out at the last minute when it was too late for me to go to class on Wednesday morning. I been out from work all week and my hair is still all over the place. This was downright painful for me because when I’m sick, I don’t like taking meds or being rubbed down with alcohol, walking when I’m weak or eating yucky soup. I had to force myself to do all these things and more to get over my fever though. I just hope I don’t get another fever. But I think that’s just apart of life.

A Mother's Birthday Surprise

So, as we all know March is the month of Pisces and tomorrow just so happens to be my mothers birthday. I do something for her every year in which she greatly appreciates and has a good time. Last year I took her out to breakfast then to a bar for some drinks. This year I plan on taking her to the hair salon and give her a nice little updo then surprise her with an all you can eat buffet when I get off from work tomorrow night. I was thinking about taking her to Old Country Buffet out in Long Island. I figured I take her there because she works so hard and bust her ass trying to maintain good grades in school. I am so proud of her and want nothing but the best for her. I also want to get her a gift but I gave her so much I run out of gifts I can buy her. She tells me all the time that her best gift ever is to have a daughter such as myself. Especially because I am her only daughter. I must admit, if feels damn good to be the only girl too. I just want to treat my mother as the true Queen she is.

English227 Contract

I, Lorin McFarlane, agree to the following terms and conditions as follows for English 227 in session A:



As required for English 227, I will not indulge myself in any activity irrelevant to this course such as use of a cellular phone, texting, drawing, sleeping or interrupting the class with foolishness.

I will maintain my role of a college student and complete all task and assignments that are required for grading.

All assignments will be turned in by the due date or before. I understand any late or incomplete assignments will not be accepted and will reflect my grade.

I will always be prompt for class and prepared with the tools and materials needed for each time the class meets while in session.

I will do my best to achieve the grade of an “A” in English 227 while completing this course. No grade lower than a “B” is acceptable of me.

I agree to be flexible with my schedule and be willing to meet with the professor on whatever course of action she chooses pertaining to class.

I agree to show equality for each class that I attend, because each class is just as important as the other is. I will not hand in poor or incomplete assignments because of interference with another class. (A slap in the face will not be tolerated because it is an insult.)



Sincerely,


Lorin McFarlane

First Time Eating Sushi

Today I tried sushi for the very first time in my life. I never would have thought I would be eating it. But I was in the hospital with relatives and we were bored and hungry so decided to eat. I even promised myself that I would never eat such a thing. Well, that went out the window. It was kind of weird though. The flavor was good somewhat tingy but yummy. There’s really no words to describe what my mouth felt. Although I only ate one, I find it to be pretty edible. I believe I ate the California style sushi roll. It had shrimp and avocado inside wrapped with rice. I always thought the sushi was raw. Literally! But once I tasted it, its not too bad. Me and my friend even ordered a second dish. What surprised me is that it was actually fulling after eating 8 pieces alone. What I don’t think I can eat is the green stuff called Japanese hot sauce. It also came with ginger, which is kind of red and pink. I hate the taste of ginger so I completely ignored that seasoning and threw it in the trash. But overall I enjoyed it. If I had to rate it between a scale of 1-10, I would rate it a 6. Only because it was my first time and I was kind of leery about eating it. Maybe after a couple more time of eating sushi, I will get accustomed to its flavors and uniqueness.

High Expectations

Since Thursday of last week, I started to look for modeling gigs. Just to do some modeling on the side and probably earn some extra cash too. I looked on Craig list and there were a lot of photographers that needed models for headshots and portraits. I had to look deeper to see what they were asking. After I realized that this can actually work out for me, I posted an ad on their website. I have only been searching for 2 days and I have already received phonecalls from modeling agencies and photographers that wants to work with me. I am kind of nervous because I have never done this before and on Monday I have a interview at this modeling agency. Then on Tuesday I have a photo shoot to attend and Saturday I go to F.I.T. for a portrait. I’m also very surprised at how quick I was able to get so much feed back as quick as I did. I hope everything goes good. Today I’m actually going to go shopping for some shoes and accessories. I have to dress casual and I want to make a good first impression. I thank my sister for coming along with me because she can keep my nerves down and make me feel more comfortable around the camera. Wish me luck guys!

I Don't Know Whatta Do!

I work at an after school program working with children from all ages. I help them with their homework, they have snack and then off to fun games and activities. This goes on till 6pm. I’ve been working here since July 2009. The pay is all good and everything, but m boss expects so much when he puts in so little. He doesn’t buy pencils and art supplies when its needed the most and he tells his employers to continue being creative. I understand it’s a recession, but damn, he’s getting paid over $500.00 a week. The least he can do is buy better more mature games for the children and things they need. Instead I make letters out to the parents asking them to donate pencils and bring in recycled goods from home for arts and crafts. Items such as toilet paper rolls, paper towel rolls, soda bottles and egg cartons. Now my boss is trying to keep me for god knows how long. He even gave me the opportunity to become junior counselor for the summer when he starts his summer camp program. The pay will be $10/hr and this is off the books. I’m liking the pay very much, but once its time to file taxes, I wont be getting anything back. Where as I can get a real job making good money and still file. I don’t know what to do. I’m still in college and the money and doing me some justice because I can pay my bills and still maintain my cars condition. Oh yea, I cant forget that I can still get my hair done and shop all the newest fashion that are out. But I just hope he is not just pulling me along for the ride only because I’ve been working with him for almost a year now and I know what he wants. But what he might do is hire summer youth workers instead because he doesn’t have to pay them. The government pays summer youth and he will be paying me out of his pockets. And I know how cheap he can be, he will fire all his current workers just to not have to pay us. I don’t think its right but I am trying to be prepared for the worst. Its not like I care because it will kind of be a stress reliever for me if he do lets me go. I cant take his stink breath demanding things and he’s not supplying us with anything. So its whatever. But knowing me, I might be a bitch about it and tell others not to bother with his nonsense because of his stingy ways. I’ll just wait to see what he is going to do. Then I will decide. But for now, I have to go along for the ride. Whatever.

Research Paper Assignment

Check this, I have this research assignment to do for my English course. At first it was suppose to be 8-10 pages long. Its based on any topic we think we can write about. I was thinking to myself, yeah this will be a breeze. I know what im going to talk about and all I have to do is find sources. Then I hand it in as a rough draft, come to find out I also need the apa format and quotations included in my paper. I currently have 9 pages but I think I can pull it off by the final week of this semester. But now the limit has been thrown out the window as soon as one of my classmates typed a paper that is 28 pages long. However the minimum is 8 pages.

The great thing about this assignment is we have 5 weeks to do it. The professor gave us the assignment in the beginning of week 3 and now its week 6. With two weeks left of my second semester, I am sure to get a passing grade. I already registered for my 3rd semester and I decided to take the same professor for my next English course, which is professional writing. I really enjoy my professors class.

Here’s the deal, we blog once a day everyday for 8 weeks, and complete the research paper, and of course the threaded discussions and we will pass the class. Oh then you say what about test, quizzes, exams and A FINAL? HAHAHA there is none and will never be one. LOL I love this. I told my friends who are in college as well, and they remark was “if you fail that class, something is wrong”. But I am a straight “A” student, so I wont let that happen. I even got an award for being on the Deans List and having perfect attendance. My mom cried tears of happiness because she is proud of me. I must say, I am proud of myself as well. Surprised, no but very proud. =]

Dish Network

I hate Dish Network cable. It is the cheapest cable company for a reason. The fact that it doesn’t work properly in bad weather should be a reason for someone not to order it. It is currently Wednesday, February 10, 2010 and we have snow at least 6 inches high already here in New York. I live in Jamaica Queens and the signal out here sucks. I am at a friends house right now but thank goodness I have Time Warner Cable back at home. At least I can watch television anytime of day I want to no matter the weather conditions. I would not recommend Dish Network to anyone. There is no signal in the rain or snow. So if you live in tropical areas and have Dish, good luck to you. But I am sticking with what I have. Another cable company that does the same is DirecTV. I wouldn’t recommend them either. =/

My Dream Vacation

My dream vacation will probably have to take place in Barbados, because I find it so relaxing and the scenery is so exotic. I have never been to such a place before and it will be a lifetime to remember. The water, the sand, even the hotel rooms. I want to visit many other places too. Such as Honolulu Hawaii, Montego Bay Jamaica, Paris, Bermuda, and Puerto Rico. There’s much more than what I can actually about these places. When I do go on vacation, I promise to collect from each location I visit. I don’t ever want to lose a memory and they will make great souvenirs. My first dream home might even have a theme based on one of the3 vacation I go on. So hopefully, I visit plenty and when I do, I do not want to be alone. I would want someone to share all the fun with. Someone to share each moment with so they can say it was great spending it with me.

Are You A Model?

So here I am. Standing at a bus stop and there had to be at least 3 people that came up to me and asked “Are you a model?” Sadly I say “No, I’m not” with a gentle smile. Then I know I had to do something when a professor asked me the same question at school yesterday afternoon. She said “you should model, you are so pretty.“ Then I got to thinking even more, maybe I should. How badly I do want to model but I feel insecure about my features at times. I think maybe my neck is too long, my bone structure is too strong or not strong enough. Then again, that is what model agencies are looking for in a female. What I am really worried about is getting away with all the hidden tattoos I have. I don’t want to be judged, yet I want to feel comfortable. I thought about modeling for Jet Magazine or XXL but I want to stay professional at all times. Hopefully, one day I will break through my insecurities.